"become what you always were - a very big fish."

I think possibly two of my favourite quotes of all time come from one book: Alice In Wonderland. The first is: "If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?” and the second is: "I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!". I think they pretty much define me and my mood right now :).

Also, I was looking back over old photos when I realised it's nearly thirty months since I was in my two favourite places in the whole wide world: Singapore+New Zealand. Being there made me realise that we all really are tiny little fish in a big pond, yet at home, in our daily lives, we're really just fish in a small tank. Did you that the bigger tank a goldfish has, the bigger it will grow? I guess people are kinda the same. The more room someone has, giving them space, allowing them to learn from their own successed and failings, the more that person will grow -not in stature, obviously, but in character. Singapore+New Zealand, I guess, were the first chance I got to be that big fish. I genuinely had the time of my life. Only trouble is, now I feel like a big fish in a small pond. I want to get out and make my own mistakes, meet new people, see everything.

GSCE Exam Results. 27th August 2009. I guess it could be make or break day for a lot of people. I should probably be more worried than I am. I was targeted to get 8A*s and a Distinction in BTEC Media. I would say that's highly unlikely. I got two of the A*s already in English Language and Science (yes, science, i was shocked too :L), so that leaves six. So I'd say maybe five in total at a big push! Although, if I get five I will be happy, as mother agreed if I get five or more A*s I can get a tattoo :D. Also, I was meant to be getting a phone if I got good results, and this morning my phone broke, which I don't know whether to take as fate, or a mere coincidence. Even if it is fate, it may not be good, maybe it broke because I'm gonna get bad results and I will need an excuse to get a new phone? I hope not. Good look to anyone getting results in the next few weeks :).

Since my last post nothing much has happened, except a big ole shopping trip where I went on a sickening Primani binge and bought quite a lot of new clothes, including, for some reason, a shirt like Rodrigo from Big Brother. Also, I've been going even more bleach crazy and now have some pretty awesome tie-bleached jeans :D.

I'll stop my ranting now. Love x.